Adjusting to the idea of saying “not right now” to overseas missions and church planting has been difficult. Move to Waco? Are you kidding me? Um, the prayer was anywhere but Waco. So, yeah.
Waco. Ok. Life will be easy there. (Insert hysterical laughter here.) We can do Waco. 5 bedrooms. A backyard. Grandparents. 5 bedrooms. Ok.
10 years, that’s all. We’ll just hang out and life will be fine, and then we’ll get on with really living. We can finally jump on that plane to the Middle East and go live the glamorous missionary life we’ve always wanted. And it will be awesome.
In the midst of all these thoughts, God stepped in.
Why do you think that life will be perfect just because your oldest two grow up? I’ve never promised that to you.
After hearing this from the Lord, I spent a lot of time thinking about the future life I was essentially idolizing. We can do whatever we want! I can live without a locked pantry. I can take a shower without panicking about what the kids are doing. Life will feel like one long vacation. Freedom!
Slowly, steadily, I had set myself up to just mark time and suck it up until our oldest two are 18(ish). But God, of course, was right. 2024 is not promised to me as the year of freedom and ease! And that’s so far from now! Not only could I miss out on 10 years of pressing in to my walk with the Lord, but who knows what will happen in the next ten years to veer us off course from “the promised land”. Our parents will be ten years older, maybe with health problems? Our younger two might struggle or not want to leave home behind for a far-off place. There might be more kids. Accidents, disease, trials without number can come along.
I wasn’t thinking about all these difficult possibilities to be negative, but it was really helpful in reframing my idolatrous vision of the future. God doesn’t promise ease to believers; in fact, He promises that there will be troubles. But He is there, and He is good.
Going through this process has helped me grab hold of now, instead of the fake future. We’re dreaming new dreams to live intentionally in our hometown and love the people there. We see the immense value in a season of putting down roots and resting a bit. Waco, we’re coming for you, and I’m so glad we are.