Y’all, it’s been a really tough week in a series of tough weeks and months and years. We woke up last Monday morning to find that our oldest child had run away overnight in a very planned fashion. For about two hours, we didn’t know where he was. Terrifying, I tell you. He was found in a safe place. We were covered in prayer and had excellent help from the police department. The details aren’t for the internet, but you might be able to tell that our kids are struggling deeply. I know so very many of you pray for us and with us. Will you pray for our kids to know Jesus as savior, rescuer, healer, comforter, friend?
My poor friends and family have been the recipients of my frustration this week about the lack of post-adopt support services. Everyone has a website and promises great things, but I’m left with a silent phone, an empty inbox, and a struggling family. Our agency referred us to help five hours from where we live. How we are supposed to keep PJ at work, care for four children, and receive services five hours away is beyond me. I really hope to write a post sometime soon with glowing reports about helpful services, but today my eyes are teary and my keyboard is practically smoking as I email vented frustrations to people who are walking with us and will bear this burden so I don’t lose my mind.
The Lord has been so good to pour scripture over us this week. And He’s giving several of us the same word: steadfast. It’s shown up in verses on steadfast love, and today I found it in Psalm 51, as a prayer for a steadfast spirit. This section of the psalm is my prayer for today: to have joy and gladness, to have my sin cleansed, to be willing to do the work, sustained by the Lord, and to see our kids come to know Christ. Join with me in praying Psalm 51: 8-13?
Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice. Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. Then I will teach transgressors your ways, so that sinners will turn back to you.